everyone says i love you (and sorry)

2009.

i wasn’t sure what the new year would bring, but i knew i liked someone a lot. i broke down and told him everything, everything i was feeling and ever felt, and he said he could not reciprocate. i met someone new who seemed nice enough, but ultimately, didn’t feel enough for. he told me he loved me. i told him i didn’t feel the same. someone who had always been in the background came sharply into focus. he told me he loved me. i told him i felt the same. it wasn’t enough.

so screwed this week

what a terrible week to be sick. i’ve got a million cooking projects, along with the usual job search/website/league stuff, plus birthdays to celebrate. i stayed home from work today (do i ever go to work anymore?), and i’m probably skipping pool league tonight (which means my team might actually win!). i did manage to get myself out to the bodega, though, to get ingredients for the bodega challenge on wednesday (i’m making a cheesy fiesta corn spoonbread, which should be interesting). i’m also about to make some creme fraiche for the pumpkin chocolate tart i’m making this weekend for matt’s massive dinner party/DIY restaurant. all this while i’m nursing a cocktail i just created– the sicko’s arnold palmer: 1/2 kombucha green tea + 1/2 thera-flu severe cold (daytime)…. DELICIOUS!

spanning time

my halloween costume this year (the one on the left):

Hello world!

welcome to my new blog. this is pretty much just for me. i’m not telling anyone about it, so if you’re reading this, how did you find me? here i plan on documenting my victories, misadventures, and defeats in the main things i’m working on these days– pool, competitive cooking, and figuring out what i’m doing with my life. dating is not on the agenda right now, but i have enough stories to write a book.  who knows, maybe i will.